Ok so this is something I have wanted to do for years.
I have helped other people successfully launch their own vlogs and it is something I've always wanted to do myself.
I've actually collated hours and hours of footage over the last year and then never actually did anything with it.
I now believe that is because it wasn't the right message. I now believe what I've got to say and the point I'm at in my life is what I want to be known for.
In my first vlog I talk very openly about my nervous breakdown and how it led to a serious binge eating problem. I piled on 4 stone in around 6 months and haven't been able to shift it since.
In the last few weeks after feeling like I'd gone back in time and was slipping back to those dangerous breakdown days I finally did something I should've done a long time ago...
I stopped the accountability with the nutrition and fitness coach. I stopped my involvement in the low carb group I was part of. I stopped the weekly weigh-in session at a slimming club. I stopped the ridiculous deliveries of diet books coming to my home each day. I left my last Overeaters Anonymous meeting.
I've had enough of all this constant overwhelm and focus on what I hate and what I want to change about my body and instead I am choosing to surrender.
It's time to try and love every inch of me. Every cell, every lump and bump and every imperfection.
Einstein's definition of madness is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result. I want something different. I want freedom and peace and self love and acceptance.
So I'm off on a mission to find it. You can join me if you like.